Sunday, January 13, 2019

The Truth About "The Baby Blues"

There is so much talk about postpartum depression and I am so happy that women are able to be open and honest about their experiences.  However, I feel like not enough is discussed about the "Baby Blues" which is far more common than postpartum depression yet rarely discussed.  Even though short-lived, the Baby Blues are a real thing. Although not as severe as postpartum depression,  it's serious enough for moms to need to open up about so they do not feel alone.

The second night at the hospital is when it began.  My husband decided to spend the night home with our son, Gavin, since he had already been away from us the first night Savannah was born.  Once evening came around, the room felt so dark and sterile.   I looked around and felt so lost.  I felt alone even though I had my perfect daughter in my arms.  I missed my son so much that I was in tears in the hospital bed.  He was home with Daddy while I was recovering the hospital and "bonding" with my baby.  I just wanted to hold him, kiss him.  Somehow I felt I had lost my relationship with him because my daughter was born.  The feeling would not shake and I had so much trouble sleeping that night in the hospital room.  One night felt like a year.

Fast forward to a few days later and I was home with both kids and felt much more like myself than I did in the hospital.  A friend came over to meet Savannah and explained how she spent a lot less time with her first child when her second was born because she was "needed" more.  I started to cry.. actually sob.  I was convinced my relationship with Gavin was tainted forever.  You see, hormones after pregnancy are no joke.  I literally felt no control over my emotions.  As a person that is usually the type to get herself together pretty quickly, it was like I was suddenly this sensitive, delicate soul that people had to walk on eggshells around.

It was not me.

I felt so anxious, like I couldn't shake the feeling.  The best way I could describe it is, "out of sorts."  I noticed when it started to get dark out, I started to have this sense of anxiety and sadness.  Feeling this way also made me feel guilty for not being overjoyed or appreciative of my perfect daughter.

I opened up to my Mom and my husband and told them that my hormones felt so out of wack.  My Mom said she felt the exact same way when I was born and it was the "Baby Blues".  Then I did what every millennial Mom would do:  I googled it.  Dr. Google told me that almost 80% of Moms experience the baby blues.  How could that be?  No one has ever warned me of this or told me that they experienced this.  That is, until I started opening up to other Moms.

  You see, your body has been through a trauma at the birth of your child.  A beautiful, magical trauma but albeit a trauma.  Many women struggle, like myself, to open up because of the guilt you feel for being sad amongst one of the happiest times of your life.  Luckily, after about a week and a half, I started to feel much more like myself.   I was one of the lucky ones.

I realized that motherhood is often times a dichotomy.  Feeling overjoyed yet scared at the same time.  Exhausted but grateful for the reason you are so tired.  The journey feels overwhelming yet so simple and beautiful at the same time.

Ever After,

Thursday, December 20, 2018

Last-Minute Amazon Prime Gifts $15 + Under

It's December 20th and if you haven't finished your Christmas shopping yet, AMAZON IS YOUR BEST FRIEND.  Below is my gift guide for gifts under $20 (that DON'T SUCK) and you will get just in the nick of time!

1. For the foodie: Sushi making Kit

This is such a cool gift for the ones who likes to experiment in the kitchen.  How much more fun can you have in the kitchen.. think Samantha Jones in the Sex and the City movie!

2. For the pregnant chick: Multi-color Motion Sensor Toilet Lights

Seriously this is one of the best Amazon purchases my husband/amazon addict has ever gotten.  I was getting up 5-6 times per night while pregnant and the motion censored lights in the dark are perfect so you can find the toilet haha.  Now we have them in every bathroom!

These are a game-changer especially for the master bathroom and for children too!

3. For your #BOSSBABE co-worker: Rose Gold Diamond Pens

Have a co-worker BFF?  Brighten her day with these adorable pens that will make note-taking in boring meeting so much more fun!  At under $15, these are the perfect small way to tell your office friends you appreciate them!

4. For the Instagram addict: Knitted Texting Gloves

Adorable gloves that will not knowing keep them warm, but they do not have to take off every time they use their phone.  Perfect for the ones whose always cold!

5. For the DIY-er: Pink Tool Set

How cute is this tool set.  No need to ask someone to hang pictures or to fix things around the house, this adorable tool box if perfect for the self-sufficient lady in your life!

6. For the Hostess: Wine Glass Markers

I received these as a hostess gift a couple years ago and love them!  No more, "Is this my wine or yours?"  Can have fun with them with silly phrases and nicknames as well.  The perfect gift for anyone who hosts a lot!

Ever After,

Tuesday, November 27, 2018

Flourless Chocolate Chip Cookies

The holidays are the toughest time to avoid sugar!  Luckily, a ton of my family members are pretty health-concious and try to come up with healthy alternatives for sweets.  I've made these chocolate chip cookies several times and they never fail to please!  Only 5g of sugar per large cookie so nothing to feel guilty about! 


  • 1 cup creamy almond butter
  • 2/3 cup coconut sugar 
  • 1 large egg
  • 1 teaspoon vanilla extract
  • 1 teaspoon baking soda
  • 1/2 cup dark chocolate chips


  1. Preheat oven to 350°F. Line two large baking sheets with parchment paper.
  2. In a large bowl, add the almond butter, coconut sugar, egg, vanilla extract, and baking soda and mix together until smooth. Add in the chocolate chips and continue mixing until fully stirred.
  3. Measure out two tablespoon sized balls of cookie dough onto the prepared baking sheets. Bake in two separate batches at 350°F for 8-11 minutes or until the cookies are set. Remove from the oven and allow the cookies to cool completely on the baking sheet.
Ever After,